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April 26, 1944

This is an epic letter – not just for its length, but for the territory it covers. Beginning with a dejected mood that carries the news his leave was refused, it morphs quickly into sardonic humor. Treat yourself to Dart’s “devilish” wit and imagination on this one.

After venting his bitterness and disappointment, Dart is able to let his personal philosophy take over. He explains how he is able to survive such a difficult letdown with his positive attitude intact.

At times, I feel he is lecturing himself in order to keep his spirits up. Other times, he sounds like the wise older brother passing life lessons on to a little sister.

In the end, Dart shows the stuff he’s made of. This letter – perhaps more than any he has written to Dot – reveals the character of this young man. If Dot felt she didn’t know him well before, she certainly can’t say that any more.

Before closing, he confided, “I’m sad and lonely, and Saturday night (Dot’s prom) I’ll cut out my paper dolls and be thinking of you.”

Scroll to the end and see the little gift Dart enclosed for Dot.

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April 27, 1944

Again, Dart’s letter covers a wide range of moods in just five pages. In spite of his best efforts, it’s easy to see that the disappointment of this week has taken a toll on his morale.

Today, however, brought a new venture. He entered a slide rule and general mathematics review class where it was soon determined that he was the only one in the group who knew anything about how to operate a slide rule. In short order, he was teaching the class himself! “It’s fun to be playing around ‘in harness’ again. It’ll give me some mental exercise which I badly need now.”

The chaplain who befriended Dart during his futile effort to obtain a leave put his neck out to find out what went wrong in Dart’s pursuit. He was ordered out of the Captain’s office and told to stop meddling in the running of the hospital! Anyway, this fresh graduate from Yale Divinity School and Dart have struck up a friendship. The chaplain has even invited Dart to dinner when he’s discharged form the hospital.  He sends his apologies to Dot that he was unable to help in getting Dart’s leave approved.

When it came time to answer Dot’s letter that expressed how much she was hoping for his visit, he ran out of steam. “Honestly, Dot, I don’t know what to do or what to say, or how to say how sorry I am.  I better stop trying before I make a mess of it and make you feel worse.”

He finishes on a sad, sweet note. “Oh, heck. I’m out of the mood. Can’t write unless I’m in the mood. Can love you always, though, and do, all the time.”

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April 28, 1944

This letter begins innocuously enough. Dart is using new stationery, illustrated with a drawing of the main building of the US Naval Hospital in Great Lakes, IL. (Back them abbreviated ILL.) He describes the 100 buildings comprising the hospital, including 60 or so that actually house patients. He talks about some of the structures being brick while others are wood. Before long, he begins to liken the whole place to a prison camp. A handful of the wards have bars on the windows, but he claims all the others may as well have, for all the freedom awarded the patients there. The entire facility is surrounded by a seven foot high fence topped with barbed wire.

He feels trapped. His mood is getting increasingly darker as the date of his hoped-for leave approaches. “I’m disgusted, bitter, sore-headed, sarcastic,” he writes. “I’ve talked and argued and griped myself almost sick today, nearly getting into the brig in the process… I haven’t been able to speak civilly to a single soul today. Really lost my grip on things.”

Claiming he’s sick and tired, he signs off abruptly, but not before telling her again that he’ll love her forever.

I wonder sometimes; years later, when these two were happily married at last, did he ever recall this dark period and remember how bleak it had looked? Was this just a blip on the radar when compared to all the experiences they shared, both good and bad, throughout their lives together?

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April 29, 1944

Here’s another bona fide love letter from Dart, written after a telephone call to his beloved on the night of her prom. It contains all the requisite ingredients of a love letter – talk of kisses, caresses and dreams. A message of longing and tenderness, such as this: “For every word of letter, please accept a paragraph or more of dream. It’s too much dream to write. … I love you very much, my dearest, and I hope it will go on that way (but not this way) for an eternity.

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Dot’s letter reflects the thrill she got from the prom night phone call from her beau. She is so touched by his thoughtfulness, including the flowers he sent through the Red Cross. She seems a little more shy than Dart at expressing her feelings, but every bit as sure of them as he is.

Dot’s natural charm and easy wit are sprinkled throughout the letter. Example:

  • “I just read over what I have written thus far and discovered that I have used the word ‘how’ exactly seven times. Must be I’m a direct descendant of Minnie Ha Ha.”
  • When thanking Dart for the flowers, she writes “‘Thank you’ is hardly sufficient to show my appreciation, but since my vocabulary is as meager as Captain Ellis’ heart, there is little else I can say.”

The letter is chock full of other news about her final days at Andrews. A cottage mate gave her some stationery with cupids on it and wrote a sweet note about Dart. During the big dance, she and Andy amused themselves by cleaning the bathroom and then dancing to the radio on the wet floors. Formal classes are over for good, and practice for the Sing-out ceremony are in full swing. She’s a little sad that there will be no one there on her behalf at this emotional service. She’s going to dinner at the Peterson’s place before she leaves for Connecticut. And she has issued a formal invitation to Dart to attend her final prom in February when she comes back to campus for graduation. No one mentions it, but there is no way of guessing where the young sailor may be in February if the war continues.

In the end, she circles back around to the tender thoughts that began the letter. “I love you very much, Dart, and I think it’s going to stay that way for at least a thousand years.”

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April 30, 1944

Dart begins this letter, still enjoying the memory of his recent phone conversation with Dot. “It’ll take years to get everything said that we have to say. And by then, we’ll have other things to talk about. Isn’t  that a pleasant thing to look forward to?”

He’s trying to find things to occupy his mind and improve his mood. Today he walked outside to the hospital gate to watch the trains going by. I think he enjoyed it for awhile, but he ended up deciding it was a bad idea. Did it simply add to his homesickness as he thought about where those trains might be going? He didn’t say.

His mother sent him photos of a few engines so that he could make some sketches. Apparently he has extensive photo files of locomotives. Have I mentioned he’s fond of trains?

He told of the trainloads of visitors that arrive daily and are driven around the hospital by bus. He mused, “How I wished you could have been among those visitors. If only there were some way for you to be among them I’d be so happy. You can wake up now, Peterson.”

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May 1, 1944

Here’s a nice note from Dart, posted from his new address in Ward 83 South. The move is part of a plan to consolidate all the cyst patients into two wards under the supervision of a single doctor. Dart describes the beautiful spring day he enjoys from the porch as he writes his letter.

He asks Dot if she knows how to play golf. His doctor has told him he should play on the adjacent course to see if his surgical wound stays closed and whether the phlebitis returns. Frankly, this sounds like screwy medicine to me, but nothing else seems to be advancing Dart’s case, so why not? If Dot knows the game, she has an invitation to stop by and teach it to him. Knowing how much my father loved sports – and by that I mean not at all, I suspect he never followed up on the doctor’s suggestion.

He finds there’s nothing more to be said in this letter, except that he loves he. He finds a nice way to say that.

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May 2, 1944

What a lovely letter from Dart in response to Dot’s long one that she wrote on prom night. For a couple that have had so few dates together and created a meager handful of memories, they sure do get a lot of mileage out of memory lane.

Dart recalls the dried leaves the two of them kicked under a sofa in Dot’s house on one of their dates. Dot reported weeks later that they were still there. Today, Dart inquires if they remain even now. He remembers what fun they had dancing, even though he is a terrible dancer. He had fond thoughts of their ping pong game, despite the fact he didn’t even know the rules of the game they were playing.

Dot had mentioned that she used to have a dream boy in her mind that she felt was too perfect to ever find in reality. After getting to know Dart, she says her former dream boy looks silly because Dart far surpasses what she could have hoped for. In response, Dart cautions her to “wait until you see my off-guard moments and my habits before you say I’m better than your dreams.”

He thanks Dot for being so sweet and lovely and faithful. Then he asks her the essential question: Do you really think, as I think and sincerely hope, that ours is the proverbial ‘real thing’ and will last forever?

He then asks if she will allow him to call her darling yet, or if that must wait a while longer.

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Dot finally had the time to write a long letter and she took great advantage of the situation. She began by sharing the news that she’d been invited to his folks’ house for dinner on Thursday. She suggested that he try to write his mother a cheerful letter, because she had sounded worried about how low he sounded in the last one.

Dot wished that he and his parents had been able to attend the beautiful Sing-out ceremony. She was deeply moved by the evening which made her even more reluctant to leave Andrews. The tea held after the ceremony was a grand affair, made even more so by the magnificent floral arrangement Dart had sent in honor of the occasion. How she’ll miss this school – both her fellow students and the faculty. She’s regretting her decision to return to Greenwich for her work experience. Even though she’s eager to see her family, she’s been away from her home town so long now, that most of the people she knows live in Ohio. He biggest regret is that she’ll be unable to see Dart before heading east.

She has received four letters asking her to come for an interview when she gets home. Two of the invitations are from small shops in Greenwich, and the other two are Bloomingdales and Saks Fifth Avenue in NYC. She’s on the fence about which would be a better experience.

She ends the letter by confiding that she has “oodles of big ideas” about the two of them, but she’s not the type to write them. She says it’ll have to wait until they are together, which she prays is soon.

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May 3, 1944

This brief note was written in haste just before lights out. It was an inauspicious marking of Dart’s last letter written to Dot at Hobart House. From now on, he’ll be directing her letters to 115 Mason St., Greenwich, CT.

He has very little news except that his photo was taken today for a Navy publication on rehabilitation programs. It captured him in the arts and skills shop, probably working on a model train. Also, he had another work detail because the admiral will be dropping by the hospital for inspection in the morning.

That’s all.

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May 4, 1944

I think Dart was feeling a little lonely when he wrote this letter. There was not much to say as he awaited the time to call home in hopes of talking to Dot and his family at the same time.

He’s sorry she’s going so far away without his getting to see her first. Bear in mind that she plans to do her semester of work experience in the east and only come back to Cleveland in February for graduation weekend. Beyond that, she has no plans to be anywhere near where Dart or his family are. I’m sure Dart has concerns that they may drift apart, given nothing concrete to hold them together, but he doesn’t mention it.

At last he stops to make the call and returns to the letter after it’s over. Although thrilled, as always, to hear her voice, he was shocked to learn that she’ll be heading home in the next day or so. He ponders that she’ll be having great weekends at home with swimming and family activities. He asks her to tell him all about her trip and about her hometown. He says, “Write a travel folder on Greenwich, sell it to me. (As if I’d need selling on any place you might be, and especially where you live.)”

He tells her that wherever she goes and whatever she does, his thoughts are always with her.

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May 5, 1944

Dart writes this letter at about the same time that Dot is heading home on an eastbound train.

The only news he can come up with from his end is the preparation for the weekly inspection of the wards. He launches into great detail about the flurry of activity that has patients and corpsmen alike scrubbing, swabbing, sweeping and polishing in order to impress the admiral. Then they wait. A blur of blue and gold finally buzz through – covering eight wards in 20 minutes. “All that work, all that worry, all that time wasted in waiting…, all that for what? Not a blessed thing… a time of utter confussion, ended by a great letdown.”

The final paragraph is just about the sweetest thing I can remember reading. It’s certainly worth a glance, but here is the gist of it:  “I wish we could live a thousand years so I could love you that long.”

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Dot writes from the train that’s taking her farther from Dart. She was glad he called last night while she was at his parents’ house for dinner. She thanks him for sounding so cheerful and says his mother was quite relieved to hear that lilt in his voice. Once again she tells Dart how much she likes his family and how sad she is to be leaving Ohio.

The closer she gets to Greenwich, however, the more excited she is to see her own family. She is arriving two days earlier than expected, as a surprise. She says she was caught in a downpour as she ran to catch her train so her suit is wrinkled and her hair is flat. She only hopes her family is more surprised than scared when she shows up.

Dart had asked her if he could begin to call her darling every once in awhile. She answers that he can call her whatever he’d like, but anyone can write a mushy letter. She prefers the type of letters he writes – intelligent and witty. They have plenty of time to use the more passionate language, but she’ll be happy to hear from him, no matter what he writes.

It strikes me that at this moment in time, our two young lovers are at very different places in their lives. Dart is feeling bored, lonely and sad, with no idea when anything positive will happen to change his state. Dot is starting on a new adventure of moving home, finding a job and seeing where the future leads.

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